A few days every week, one to three of my older kids participate in a youth program on base. When I’m off, it’s a great excuse for me to park my butt at the nearby coffee shop and write. After all, I’m trying to finish off the draft of my NaNoWriMo project (50K words wasn’t enough for the story I had planned), and then I have fantasy book 2 to write…
Sometimes it feels like a constant “should” hanging over my head. I could be writing. I want to write more. I need to finish the next book, and the next one, and the one after that. I don’t want to waste my time flipping through Facebook and tapping through Twitter.
And yet, when I parked at the coffee shop yesterday, I noticed once again the stone benches placed between several banyan trees. I saw the sun shining through the clouds and the leaves. I heard the birds chirping out their warnings. I paused to sit and enjoy the moment, and then I tried to capture it in my journal.
On that page, I wrote these words, hoping to immortalize the memory for myself if no one else, and the moment of contemplation got me thinking about how many times I’ve passed that spot without stopping.
The things we want don’t come because we wish for them; they come because we work for them.
I recorded my thoughts and a reading of the text in my journal on YouTube here:
Here’s the text of my notes, in case the wind got in the way.
The branches and sections of trunk tangled and wound together like a four-year-old’s shoelaces…
roots like elephant trunks curling this way and that between octopus tentacles that poke through the waves of green grassy seas…
birds on all sides, singing the same few notes over and over, like someone with a song stuck in her head who can only remember one or two lines…
warm sunbeams cast long, cool shadows, and ants march across my pencil case in search of something edible…
cars drive by, carrying men and women on other business who will forever be oblivious to THIS moment, THIS time and space…
and I do not judge, for so often I have been likewise blind by necessity or obligation, forced to focus my attention on some other task, marching like these ants toward an unspecified but presumed-important goal…
All of us are pulled and twisted in many directions like the trunks and branches of these trees; all of us are motivated by unavoidable consequence to avoid “wasted” team and move with purpose to the next task…
But can I be cautious and conscious, careful to find here and there in life a moment and space like this?
Can I pause and be still, and listen to the world?
Though pulled and twisted by demands, can I sit like a tree, elegant in the pose like a dancer stretching upward?